March 2009
18 posts
illogical
I usually set my alarm for 8 AM and I sleep in until 10. Apparently I enjoy torturing myself with the cacophonous splendor of that analog TING-A-LING from the bells…sigh. Anyway. But this time I only slept in for a half hour then decide holy crap, I have THINGS to do!
So, much to the dogs’ surprise I got up and let them outside, fed them (what!) and got on the Gazelle in a timely...
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bunny ears.
I was taking my requisite Sunday portraits of the dogs that come about when there’s good lighting from the windows and they’re content to lay on the couch and pose. It didn’t occur to me until a few photos later that Simona was sitting behind Israel and unknowingly giving him a classic set of “bunny ears”.
I was going to get Starbucks with friends but that was...
tangible connection to PostSecret
I took a photo of Anna in November of 2005 during the dreaded post-break-up phase of her relationship with Dan (now her husband.)
Then a few months later, in April of ‘06, while browsing PostSecret I was scrolling down the page and my heart leapt into my throat when I saw my photo of Anna on there sent in as a postcard.
I still wonder who sent it and why they chose that photo....
Watchtrust me, I should’ve left him stuck in there. I would have fewer bruises. got my hair pulled, butt slapped, toes stepped on, kicked, bitten, hit in the face with a broom, an umbrella thrown at me…sigh. and he’s all of three.
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you are beautiful.
there are several varieties of Hostess cookies in the comptroller’s office. the packages are conveniently located on the cabinet beside the mini fridge and microwave—both of which I use for my lunch. I don’t even like the cookies that much—ones I bake are a million times better. but it’s still a freakin’ cookie and I. want. that. damn. hell. cookie. there are...
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diet + exercise = reward - food = ?
(I’ve always been bad at math.)
I realized that a lot of my motivation to lose weight and get in shape comes from anger.
Angry that I’ve lived 22 years like this. Angry that I never did anything to change before. Angry that I never got help or saught it out. Angry that it took this long to realize it’s not the end of the world if I can’t eat anything I want or nothing at...
“Good judgment comes from experience, and often experience comes from bad...”
– Rita Mae Brown Quotes
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Snack free.
Yesterday was a horrible day as far as eating. I could not stop—even when I was absolutely not hungry. Normally I’m pretty good about eating only when I’m hungry—if I eat at all. It seems that with the warming of the weather my appetite almost disappears.
But yesterday? I cringe thinking about all that I consumed.
I never felt full but I was never hungry. As soon as I saw...
my worst nightmare.
It’s no secret that I love my dogs more than I love my human family. They all sleep in bed with me and keep me warm. They’re around when I need someone to talk to and drive me insane almost as much as they keep me grounded.
I don’t know what I would’ve done without them this past year—which was needlessly rough.
This last week wasn’t all that great to begin...
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my feelings for you are forever
Is there any lonelier feeling than loving someone who can’t love you back but still uses you? No matter what he says or does or how much he hurts me I can’t stop loving him even when loving him is the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It’s not even a matter of finding the strength to forgive because I forgive him before there’s anything to be sorry for. It is a deep,...
Blood on my feet as I walk away.
Apparently I’m going to go see the vampire Sunday morning.
It will be awkward and strange. It won’t feel right seeing him in the daytime. When we only spent time together at night it helped keep up the disillusionment he created.
I realize I don’t write as much as I used to anywhere right now because I simply don’t want to remember this time of my life.
I suppose...
Never drive behind someone with GRMPA in the license plate. GOSH.
listening to "Sea Lion Woman - Feist" →
One of my absolute favorite songs and this cover is AMAZING
listening to "Paper Planes - M.I.A." →
This is my happy song from late summer 2008. I can listen to it now and instantly feel better.
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