September 2009
16 posts
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dearoldlove:
I’d like to marry you and have your babies and never ever have you be my “old love.” The only problem is, I think I’m already yours.
August 2009
16 posts
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Shaken by the violence.
I thought that everything would magically fall into place when I realized that I could love someone so much more than I ever knew I could love another person.
In my naivete I thought there was no way that such a love could go unrequited. But the truth is that no matter how much you love another person, if they don’t want your love, or any love, then it’s a waste of time, energy and...
slip away
Even before spring had settled in I feared this summer would be a total loss.
And of course it is.
I didn’t go to the fair. I went to the beach a few times. I saw the vampire only twice.
I did go to Texas, at least.
But otherwise…no, I can’t say I’ve had much fun this summer. I won’t hold out much hope for fall, or winter, or, really, the rest of my godforsaken...
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getting back on track
though I haven’t gained any weight back, I haven’t lost any since June either. I’ve had little motivation—bad weather, drinking, no food, no sleep.
that’s changing. spurred into action again, I’m going grocery shopping tomorrow for the first time since May. I’m also going to try to do a mostly raw vegetarian diet for a few months because I love fruits and...
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every song is about him
And I’ll survive, paranoid I have lost the will to change And I’m not proud, cold-blooded fate I will shut the world away I will not bow I will not break I will shut the world away I will not fall I will not fade I will take your breath away
— Breaking Benjamin, “I Will Not Bow”
today is a bad day.
I want to stay locked up in my house, but I can’t stand to be...
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Don't bring a knife to a gunfight.
“Oh yeah right!” That was my mother’s scoffing reaction when I told her that I am not traumatized by the events that took place Wednesday night. I stared at her quite seriously and asked, “Why don’t you believe that? I’m honestly not.” The fleeting moments when I felt the urge to cry was after we made it over the hills and were standing in the road by...
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The Perseids.
So. The meteor showers were going on tonight. We decided to go back to the beach a bit earlier during the peak to check them out. Anamarie, my mom, Rachel, Adam and me. We meet up at the parking lot. We go down to the sand. We see a few meteors, we’re quiet and relaxed. I notice five guys coming up the beach by the water. They’re talking, getting closer, and asking each other “Is...
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“There’s no better place than Texas to start over.”
– John Connelly
some things never change
I wrote this several years ago. I came across it in the middle of the night. It made me cry because nothing has changed.
I had a dream that I knew Beth in person. I was in the car with my mom, we were driving out of the parking lot of the tiny Wal-Mart in Blue Earth. The sky was grey. I could see the faded parking space lines painted on the asphalt. I began telling my mom about what had...
it could be sweet
it’s not like I’m saving it for Jesus…for Mr. Right…or for anyone.
it’s easy to hold on to something no one else wants.
I don’t even want it anymore.