August 2010
103 posts
“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
– Kahlil Gibran
dreams.
tired, exhausted from an irritating day at work, I turned on the TV and relaxed on the couch.
I drifted between sleep and watching whatever was on TV, not caring what was on, just wanting the distraction.
except in that hazy dream state where your thoughts can wander and not being fully asleep I suppose my mind was vulnerable to memories that I had unwittingly buried.
the phantom touch of his...
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“My father, in one of our many recent conversations about his childhood, told me that he thought the biggest casualty of slavery was the black family. He said the violence against that institution created damage the effects of which have persisted long after slavery was eradicated. ‘But the saving grace was the way people turned to each other electively,’ my father told me over...
July 2010
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Invictus
Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me...
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“Here, in the pale light of my chosen amnesia, I can imagine I am free.”
– Danzy Senna, Where Did You Sleep Last Night?
really, stupid?
refresher: I answer the phone for two separate dealerships. so every day I have to ask “What type of vehicle do you have?” when someone asks for parts, service, or if they’re calling to buy a car, I have to ask what type of car they’re interested in. lots and lots of vetting, while dealing with customers and sales people. I’m a rockstar.
“…how may I...
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Pencilhead
Jon: So did you two go on a date yet?
Me: No! He'd probably try to touch me and that's gross.
Jon: Hey, he's been with two women at once!
Me: Gross!
Jon: They were probably desperate and super fat!
Me: Well I'm just desperate and fat!
Jon: I didn't say you were fat!
Me: But you didn't say I wasn't desperate!
“I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a...”
– Anaïs Nin (via fuckyeahanaisnin)
“How wrong it is for a woman to expect the man to build the world she wants...”
– Anais Nin
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“Love is so short, forgetting is so long.”
– Pablo Neruda
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pause.
I wait because I have hope.
I wait because I have faith.
I wait because I have love.
I wait because I am afraid to let go.
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“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the...”
– Anaïs Nin (via thechocolatebrigade) (via fuckyeahanaisnin)
“Oh, God, I know no joy as great as a moment of rushing into a new love, no...”
– Anaïs Nin (via fuckyeahanaisnin)
“Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through....”
– Anais Nin
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“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than...”
– Anais Nin
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missing the kick.
let me explain to you how I’ve felt for over a month now.
the things that defined me are ideas, not actual memories.
I used to bake every week. cookies, pie, cupcakes. I used to walk the dogs every day or every other day. I used to miss my dogs and want to spend all my time with them.
I haven’t baked in almost two months. I walk the dogs once every couple weeks if I remember. I...
a small spider climbed down the wall next to the poster above the water fountain at work. “Should I kill it?” I asked the parts clerk. “Hell yeah.” I knew he would say that.
I turned my attention back to the spider suspended at the end of a silk thread, legs twitching in the air as it began to descend further down the wall. I couldn’t bring myself to kill it. with...
“I just want something I can never have… Everywhere I look, you’re...”
– NIN
