every song is about him
And I’ll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I’m not proud, cold-blooded fate
I will shut the world away
I will not bow
I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall
I will not fade
I will take your breath away
— Breaking Benjamin, “I Will Not Bow”
today is a bad day.
I want to stay locked up in my house, but I can’t stand to be around the dogs. everything they do makes me angry today. just them looking at me had me screaming at them to leave me alone. the catch 22 is that I need to take them on a walk but I just don’t have the mental energy to do it right now. maybe in a little bit. maybe I can get someone to go with me.
I’m bored with seeing the same people over and over. someone I haven’t seen in a long time is the vampire. I miss him a little bit—nothing to the extent I used to. which is why I could see him today but I’m not even bothering to email him. I never replied to his last email either.
I think I’ll find the will to walk the dogs and get some fresh air, I’ll try to forget the shitty weather this year, and how once again I don’t have any money. And then I’ll read Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and probably stay up all through the night once again and then dream about wizards and wands and spells.
