Shaken by the violence.
I thought that everything would magically fall into place when I realized that I could love someone so much more than I ever knew I could love another person.
In my naivete I thought there was no way that such a love could go unrequited. But the truth is that no matter how much you love another person, if they don’t want your love, or any love, then it’s a waste of time, energy and self.
It doesn’t matter that they won’t, can’t, don’t love you back.
Because you still love them…Even though it eats you alive.
I am strangely grateful that I will never have children. I’ll never risk the chance of having a daughter who could ever know what this feels like.
It’s just better that way.
Do What You Have To Do - Sarah McLachlan
What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage,
created you a monster,
broken by the rule of love?
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.
And fate has led you through it.
You do what you have to do.
And I have the sense to recognize
that I don’t know how to let you go.
Every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul.
I’m ever swiftly moving,
trying to escape this desire,
the yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.
The yearning to be near you.
I do what I have to do.
and I have the sense to recognize
that I don’t know how to let you go.
I don’t know how to let you go.
A glowing ember, burning hot,
and burning slow.
Deep within, I’m shaken by the violence
of existing for only you.
I know I can’t be with you.
I do what I have to do.
I know I can’t be with you.
I do what I have to do.
And I have the sense to recognize
But I don’t know how to let you go.
I don’t know how to let you go
