(via heartbeatstopped)
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin’ for the phone cause I can’t fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time….
Said I wouldn’t call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don’t know how I can do without
I just need you nowGuess I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all
I felt physically ill driving home listening to this song on the radio as the words sank deep into my heart and I wanted so badly to scroll down the names in my phone to his work number and press call.
“Guess I’d rather hurt than feel nothing at all” is such a simple lyric but it sums up exactly how I feel about him.
nothing good comes from talking to him or seeing him. but something pulls me back even when I try so hard to fight it.
it was a few minutes of silent arguing in my head as I drove home. I wanted so badly to call and sob into the phone about how much I missed him. except I wanted to say the words but didn’t really mean them. I don’t know who or what I miss…only that I miss something…
I made it another day.
tomorrow I might not be so strong.
